Meaningless

vertigo

a fear of falling
‘cause that is one loooong jump
into the fluffy carpet of lurve
before they whisk
it from your reach
and propel you to the spiky rocks below
yes, i have vertigo
and yet i love
those rollercoasters
that leave you hanging upside down
for hours on end
if you’re unlucky
i shy away
from those kinds of bars
where men will try it on
i don’t like to think
i could fall again
into that deception
into the unlies
and untruths
never really meant
but said with such conviction
who knows
who knows?
what will come
will come
and maybe one day
i will be pushed off that cliff
or jump
or let myself
fall.