nus eht semoc ereh
what it is
to not have you
a gaping hole in the ground
in my chest
where i can see the insides
hollow
shell
red raw
and not at all like before
you’re like the sunrise, so rare
so beautiful and new and old
and never new at all
always around
just on the wrong side
to be without you
is to be with you
because I am still alone
yes
we are alone
and together
trapped side by side in our shells
but what if i
roll on over
open up
this one
to you
slowly
piece by piece
cell by cell
unlock my cell
open up my shell
and let you see
the emptiness? ……….
not that there is nothing inside me
but take you out and where’s the heat?
where’s the breeze?
where’s the cool?
i always said you were a warm day
and what am i
when you’re taken away?
of course, the same as i always was
backwards and frontwards and no less
no less
=
learn.
